After spending 8yrs in the British army, shortly before ending my career I had a relationship break up and lost two friends to suicide. This really affected but at the time I chose to bottle it up and not speak about what was on my mind, I refused helping hands from family and friends and pushed them away. Understandable my health began to deteriorate, to the stage where I was battling suicidal ideation on a daily basis. Depression was in control my motivation was gone and I was not kind to myself.
In honesty I have never been so scared in my life, I lost my motivation, my ability to retain information, my confidence and myself overall.
Eventually I seeked helped and thinking back I wish I had done it much sooner. I completed some therapy (CBT), returned to the gym,changed my bad habits which only made me sink further, and welcomed more positivity into my life. I now speak openly about my thoughts,feeling‘s and emotions and would encourage all men to do the same. Remember therapy is healthy and you don’t have to be in a bad place to be engaging in it. Look after your mh it’s important and remember you are not alone 🙏🏾❤️ always be your authentic self, speak your truth and remember “Those who matter don’t mind and those who mind don‘t matter.” - Bernard Baruch
